"I told my mother i was bisexual, she said :I knew i shouldn´t have smoked when i was pregnant".

A new place in the world is revealed while Bea is confronted with loss and what she imagines will come. In the house that prepares itself to embrace change, fears dwell. An unforeseen loneliness also seems to be part of her desire, that of being a mother without a partner and a lesbian. Raquel films her attached to a time when the two shared the same idea of community. As Bea’s body changes, the camera moves between affection and distance. An attempt to get to know each other (again), and perhaps also a need to wonder about family, love, friendship and all those desires that overflow the limits of intimacy.

In this film, made two weeks prior to his death from AIDS, San Francisco performer Rodney Price sings and tap dances a darkly humorous song about his own death, "I've Got Less Time Than You."

Even though his musical and literary oeuvre is neither large nor very well known apart from his bestseller-novel «The Sheltering Sky», the American composer and author Paul Bowles (1910-1999) was a man of immense charisma and influence. When he moved to Tangier (Morocco) in 1949, it was a city divided into zones, a sanctuary for artists, writers and the wealthy to do as they pleased without fear of prosecution. Soon, Paul‘s friends and peers from America began visiting: Tennessee Williams,Truman Capote, Gore Vidal, Jack Kerouac, Alan Ginsberg, William Burroughs and many others. The Neo-Lost Generation, the Beats, the Hippies all searched him out, lured by the mysterious and magical world he depicted in his books. But that was only one side. Though Paul Bowles never hid his homosexuality, he was married to the lesbian writer Jane Bowles. What attracted them despite their extremely different personalities was a shared worldview: that one must travel to the point of no return in order to find salvation. Based on an exclusive series of interviews with Bowles shortly before his death and anecdotes provided by his friends and collaborators, the film tells of a daring and visionary life and a relationship shaped by a codependency that went way beyond sexuality. Among the participants are Gore Vidal, Bernardo Bertolucci, John Waters, Ruth Fainlight, Edmund White, William Burroughs, Francis Bacon and many others.  

Hopes and sorrows in a transsexual. 3rd Independent Video Show of Barcelona 1996.

Benning illustrates a lascivious encounter with a "bad girl," through the staging of gender and the interaction of Hollywood clichés: posing for the camera as the rebel, the platinum blonde, the gangster, the fifties crooner, and the "vamp" with heavy eyes. Poses with a cigarette, slow romantic dances, and fast-action heavy metal street shots drive the viewer through the story of the love affair. Benning's video goes beyond romantic fantasy, describing other facets of physical attraction including fear, violence, lust, guilt, and total excitement. As she herself says, "It wasn't love, but it was something..." It was an opportunity to feel glamorous, sexy, and famous, all at the same time.